Felling like An "Emotional Volcano"

Ok, so for thoes who know me know that im already a realy emotional girl and im also a HUDGE worryer and also even though a HATE to admit it im a controol freak! see, over the years i have let these things and lots more slowly but surly creep into areas of my life and they have taken major tools on my emotional well being, my relationship whith christ, my relationship whith others, my realtionship whith my Mentor,and the one thats realy buging me at the moment is my realtionship whith my mom and step dad! i mean it diffently goes booth ways dont get me wrong but lately ive been blameing them for EVERYTHING!! and yes alot of it they have had something to do whith. But i have too! I ask God to show me the areas in my life and in my realationship whith them where im the problem! i dont fell like they listion to me,care, ect....! But i do know that this is not from Christ! espicaly lately me,my mom, and my step dad have been just beating each other up emotionaly and saying things to and about each other and are selfs we would have never ever have said in a million years! And this is all realy taking a toll on me and causing all of us to have a veary un healthy resentment towards one another and has caused alot of un happyness and a hudge lack of communication! see, my step dad and mom fell like theyve heared me loud in clear and i fell like im being completely ignored and not realy truly heared(make sense??) and that the way im felling enotionaly and spritualy dosnt matter at ALL TO THEM!! And i fell the same way towards them and they probaly fell ignored...ect! im at a lost as to what to do cause i have a million things on my mind regarding this that i cant quite organnize in a healthy positive way to say on here or to them or anyone else !! its driving me crazy litteraly! its so much more then just the issue whith my mom and step dad all though thats a hudge part of it but its a ton of other things to taking a toll on me that i keep inside and dont share att all and if i do share its not everything and its not the whole truth as to what i wanted to say or whats on my mind and harte! God Has blessed me whith wonderful women in my life and i had the wonderfull opertunity for two years to beable to sit whith them once a week and just talk,pray,laugh,cry,share are hartes, u name it! but i never realy felt like i was conpletely open and honest whith them even though i had many many oppertunitys too! i still keep in touch whith them through email,phone, and in person! thank God for thses women cause God through them have helped me from doing things i would never do but have thought about sadly! ok, i ve gone way of track here. i guess what im trying to say is i whish my parents would sit whith me,hear me out whitout innteruption,critcssism,thinking there right,im wrong, or im a sinner, or im crazy!! i just want them to hear me ou ABOUT EVERYTHING not just stuff whith them but EVERYTHIING! And that i too am able to do the same whith them! Pleaes pleaes pray for me and my famaily, and all of my realtionshonships and thers! God is so good and he is faithful and He loves you uncondtionaly no matter what!! uttilmately we live for Him and long for His love no one eleses!! He is all i need! He loves me uncodtionaly and He is ALWAYS there for me and to listion to me!! Best of all i know He hears me loud in clear and cares about me so deeply! AMEN!! pray sisters and brothers in Christ! Keep foucused on Him!
Sincerly HIS,
Rebecca <><